Hunter Alexander. 16. Transgender. Depression, anger, atelophobia.Tumblr (3.0; @lookingdownistheonlywaynow)http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me3sa6YYuV1rl6e6mo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/36994666179http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/36994666179Sat, 01 Dec 2012 20:30:40 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lz95hrDbjN1qifzy2o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22555995186http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22555995186Sun, 06 May 2012 20:35:24 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3mju5gFQV1rsgpqio1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22555387997http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22555387997Sun, 06 May 2012 20:27:03 -0400<p>No. I&#8217;m fucking <strong>DEAD</strong> inside. Do you <strike>see</strike> that? Do you <strike>know</strike> that? Of coarse not. I hide it too well right? If you knew the stories behind each and <strong>EVERY</strong> scar. Would you stay or just pretend you know nothing? Think I should get some <em>help</em>? Probably. But I wont get <strong>ANY. </strong>When you have the fear of your parents knowing. Telling you that what you did is wrong because they don&#8217;t <strike>understand</strike>. Why don&#8217;t they understand or at least <strike>try?</strike> They can&#8217;t. They wont. Something is <strong>MENTALLY WRONG</strong>. And you only have yourself to blame. That&#8217;s <em><strong>NOT</strong></em> true though. You have every reason to <strong>CUT</strong>. Because when <strong>EVERYTHING</strong> piles up and the world is on your shoulders. <strong>NO ONE</strong> fully understand what you&#8217;re going through. When school <em><strike>was</strike> </em>your escape from the abuse, when being with friends <strike><em>was</em></strike> a good time, <strong>ALL</strong> the time. When seeing your dad <strike><em>was</em></strike> the best thing in the world. But all that ended. School is the last place you want to be. Your friends don&#8217;t get you any more cause it&#8217;s just not the same any more. When your dad treats you like how your mom and step dad did. Life is miserable. You want to <em>take your life</em> <strong>ALL</strong> the time. You want to <strong>CUT</strong> so <em>deep</em> that you bleed out and die. When you want to <strong>OVER DOSE</strong> on pills. But you can&#8217;t. You have people saying that you have to keep fighting the battle. The war is never won. So you think to yourself what&#8217;s the point any more? Then you think, you got a girlfriend who you love. Few friends who try to help you out. And a father who provides food and a roof over your head. So what&#8217;s next. </p> <p>Do you still think I&#8217;m &#8220;<strike><em><strong>fine</strong></em></strike>&#8221;?</p>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22238788971http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22238788971Tue, 01 May 2012 22:40:29 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3dfqzP0rS1rpovhto1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22237505529http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22237505529Tue, 01 May 2012 22:22:50 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3dh3l8Kar1rt87sio1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22237155690http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22237155690Tue, 01 May 2012 22:18:08 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m244r6NzR81r63xr2o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22236461456http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22236461456Tue, 01 May 2012 22:09:01 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2scszLmWt1qieq9mo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22236166749http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22236166749Tue, 01 May 2012 22:05:13 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lz0b0qu4Ix1qahxmso1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22236107740http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22236107740Tue, 01 May 2012 22:04:28 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m39znfjffN1qa192yo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22151171006http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22151171006Mon, 30 Apr 2012 18:57:12 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m26lr9JBEn1qagnxso1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22151070628http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22151070628Mon, 30 Apr 2012 18:55:53 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwa1yy4Vik1qe7mxjo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22150806265http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22150806265Mon, 30 Apr 2012 18:52:25 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m334udEgU81r36w0to1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22150641200http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22150641200Mon, 30 Apr 2012 18:50:14 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m35ft7FH6T1rue1d6o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22150590241http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/22150590241Mon, 30 Apr 2012 18:49:33 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lurupvFDy81qfi46uo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/21570404650http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/21570404650Sun, 22 Apr 2012 10:24:25 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2survOuXA1rsi9odo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/21550049567http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/21550049567Sun, 22 Apr 2012 00:19:18 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lw0g8chCUk1qlccb8o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/21550004919http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/21550004919Sun, 22 Apr 2012 00:18:35 -0400http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/20781806610http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/20781806610Mon, 09 Apr 2012 11:51:48 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m21gbnh1GQ1r98x73o1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/20763867465http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/20763867465Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:57:52 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m26t035wfg1r665upo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/20763846372http://lookingdownistheonlywaynow.tumblr.com/post/20763846372Mon, 09 Apr 2012 00:57:25 -0400